我慌了但还没乱

其实这些事实我早已经知道，只是日复一日地假扮傻子装作从来都不知道。 　“只有坚持才会成功，　只要经得起时间的洗礼岁月无情的切割　由始至终都不变心　上天总看得见　你的坚持总会开花结果”　 类似的句子常常在阅读报刊的文稿时都会有　但其意义又那么的切确　那么错不了？　 思想还为完全成熟的我　被摆在眼前的事实与一直存在心中的坚持弄得混淆了　 是否该退一步昂望星空　发现其实还有那么多正闪烁着的星星　分分秒秒都在夜里洋溢着笑容　等待我一一分辩她们谁才是属于我的星？　 抑或该持续追逐那开始就被看上的明月　付出更多努力　对有天必能拥有它深信不惑　 这回我真地慌了　或许我太倾于把注意力，一切一切都建构与周围的人事物罢了　而忽略了其他 但与这些人事物的日夜相对　产生一丝丝感情　对于这点我也束手无策　这是自然不过的　 质疑着自己的耐力　恨不得能马上飞去未来时光　让我看清到最后　究竟紧握手掌心的是皎洁如爱的明月　还是闪亮如金的星星 无可奈何　前方的路到头来只能由亲身探索　得到的答案才称得起值得　继续前进吧。。有天我会懂的　 我慌了　但我没乱　　

5/5/2013

Huge day tomorrow for the country ,the 13th General Election if I'm not mistaken.It might be the historical moment where our country will turn into a new leaf, or don't. Dad must be the most exciting person since he is extremely active in political issues . Well , due to underage we students are the outsiders in this matter, none of our business. It's just another ordinary day to live through. May GOD bless a smooth and clean process on tomorrow. May now, no much time to waste . The pressure shouldering weighs twice more than a big stone. Almost unbearable yet I'm still capable. Exam is ongoing, again will be mental killing. Fatigue . So meaningless.

My mum

She's at the age of early 50's. Basically she is in a great physical condition , voice is still loud , unlike those who are probably to falter much when they have stepped into the old age. So to me, mum is still one perfection . The only blemish that ruins is she has a poor hearing ability. To be frank, we family tend to have a little problem to communicate with mum . It's unlikely to be smooth and easy as Mum couldn't hear what we speak at the first place. Tonight, mum asked me for help . Well, she was learning to text through phone. What I mean here, is button phone . Mum has never get recognized with any electronic device , the only exception is TV . But today, she wanted to text , maybe to her friend? Someone in Kuantan. She didn't know to function the phone at all, and I knew that sister and dad would not bother much , thy would instead type the message for her and get everything done without further explanation. But this is never in mum's will. She craves to learn this something new for her. Perhaps she's badly affected by the three of us at home who press on the phone days and nights. So, I stopped my workloads . Tutored mum till she finally could send a text by her own. And it was when I see the satisfaction glows wither her eyes. After all, great patience is very essential .Mum has been getting older and her hearing deteriorates in a bad effect. This is what I can boost with as sister and dad will never have the particular extent of patience to teach mum . Mum, there are words that I could never speak through words and I opted here as my alternate way to deliver . Mum, feel free to consult me whenever u need any explanation whether it's still about phone, english language.. and anything. I will always answer , explain , without fed.